Tuesday, 29 January 2008

MY LIFE IS TURNING TO HELL

A conversation i came across and it is worth reading.....
touched my heart and made me think....
hope it helps you too!!!!

MY LIFE IS TURNING TO HELL
26 Nov 07

Messenger Conversation between S & H this morning, felt lots of blessings as
the words were being written with Guru's kindness. So am sharing this
prayer with the sangat.

S:

Bro my life is turning into hell.
I say one thing and do another.
I feel like going and get drunk.
To get rid of tension.
I have not touched drugs in more then 1 year.
My health, love, life everything is gone.
I have severe depression.
Feel like dying.
No one can help me.
What shall i do?
My mind has been corrupted by porn.
I have mental disorder no energy for no life.
I feel good and energetic but then i end up masterabuing and feel shit
again.
No one can help me i Am so tired i feel like dying but i cant even commit
suicide because he wont let me.

H:

Its a slow process , remember be KIND to your MIND.
Start with appreciating the little things.
Thank you Satnaam Baba Ji for the air I breathe, You keep giving air to
everyone - slanderers and saints.
Thankyou Satnaam SatGuru ji for the sun on my face.
Thankyou Satnaam Satguru ji for each drop of water.
Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou,
I am not worthy,
I do not appreciate,
but whatever I am, Satnaam Satguru ji, I am YOURS.
Be kind, Be merciful, take me by the arm Satnaam Satguru ji and pull me out
of my deep dark well of scum that I am in.
I am nothing , YOU are everything,
I am a sinner, but YOU are the saver of the sinners.
I am in trouble, but YOU are the one who destroys all Troubles.
Please do not forget about me Satnaam Satguru Ji.
Bless me with Your purest Naam.
Bless me with singing you praises.
Bless me with the dust of your saints feet.
Bless me with good thoughts, Guru's wisdom.
Bless me with strength to get through this hard time.
Dear Satnaam Satguru ji, I have no one else, I have no place of my own.
You are the home of the homeless.
You are the strength of the weak.
You are the Giver of All,
I seek your Shelter,
I seek the cool shade of Your Lotus feet.
Keep me always and forever in the shelter of your Lotus Feet.
Always and forever keep your hand above my head.
You are my Brave Guru.
Please stand above my head and protect me.
You are the strength of the weak, please come and give me Your strength.

S:

Thanks I felt good just by reading this

H :

Keep praying like this.
Keep talking to SatNaam Satguru like this.
In your darkest hour, when you have no Light, when you have only depression
and death as your tormentors, REMEMBER THAT ONE and HELL wont touch you.
Satnaam.
Satnaam.
Satnaam.
Satnaam.
Satnaam.
Always and forever,
my beloved and my Protector
Satnaam Satguru.
Always be with me, in me and around me

S:

I actually feel like crying.

H:

Be the cool wind.
Be the cool water for my hell-fire mind

S:

What you said makes me emotional.

H:

This is how we pray.
This is the real prayer from the depths of our soul which we sometimes ONLY
reach when we are in the deepest, darkest place of our mind.
The thirsty soul speaks through the scum of the mind, it makes us emotional,
those tears we cry wash away our filth.
Wash the Gurus feet with those tears.
That's where we go to cry.
That's where we go to die.
Ego torments us, we get frustrated, angry at ourselves, cant escape, get
suicidal, but learn to die in the true way.
Die at the feet of Satnaam Satguru ji.
Put your head on the Guru's feet and never lookup again in ego.
Die such a death that you never have to die again.
Love such a love that you know Eternal Love.
Satnaam.
Satguru.
Satsangat.
I am nothing YOU are everything.
Thank you for my breath,
for the water,
for the food,
for this chance in TIME and SPACE in this PLACE to do some good,
to do some simran,
to serve some one,
to live for others,
to become desire free,
to die at your Lotus feet.
This DARK AGE is hot, SAT NAAM is cool.
Satnaam
Satnaam
Satnaam.
Thank you for letting me do some service for you S. Thankyou for letting us
pray together in this way. God Bless You always and forever.

S:

Bro I cannot thank you enough. I can only wash your feet.

H:

Lie down now, and relax, just notice your breath, going in and out, and let
all the other thoughts just fly by like clouds in the sky.
Those thoughts are NOT YOU, do not get fooled by them, do not start getting
frustrated by them, dont identify with them, learn to step back and
recognize them, and let them fly by like clouds in the sky of the mind.

S:

Yeah.

H:

Once you are back in balance, then also realize that those thought only
overwhelm us when we haven't been cleaning them out. That's why even 5 min
relaxation, breathing, letting go, thanking , saying Satnaam keeps us free.

S:

Yeah.

H:

So feel better now?

S: Much better. Thank you.

H:

I could feel Satnaam Satguru ji sending you plenty of Amrit during that
prayer. Thank Satnaam Satguru Ji.

S:

I feel happy now

H:

That's what Sat-sangat does for us, someone else is overflowing with amrit
and someone else is drowning in sorrow, one helps the other - God does it
all, like water flows from high to low

S:

Yeah.

H:

If you like, print out the prayer we did together above, and use it when you
need it.

OK?

S:

I Am on mobile but i Am GONNA write it on a piece of paper

H:

Everything else ok?

S:

Yep, thanks

H:

OK then take care, stay in the Light, stay free of those thoughts, Your
Blessed Blessed – Stay in Peace. Dhan Dhan Sukhee Raho,

dust of your feet, H.

S: You too bye.

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